Optimician

I got a friend who said to me few weeks ago.

"I really envy you, you are always so optimistic."

Am I?

I dun think so...

Wraith Pined to the Mist (And Other Games)

Let's have bizarre celebrations
Let's forget who forget what forget where
We'll have bizarre celebrations
I'll play the Satyr in Cypris you the bride being stripped bare

Let's pretend we don't exist
Let's pretend we're in Antarctica

Let's have bizarre celebrations
Lets forget when forget what forget how
We'll have bizarre celebrations
We'll play Tristan and Izolde but make sure I see white sails

Maybe I'll never die
I'll just keep growing younger with you
And you'll grow younger too
now it seems too lovely to be true
but I know the best things always do

Let's pretend we don't exist
Let's pretend we're in Antarctica

Of Montreal
Sunladic Twins

入戏

“铺天盖地是你完美演技。
一句抱歉说的煽情。
坏人我做就可以。
若即若离是你完美演技。
那里热闹往哪里去，
都随你。。。”

是我一直太入戏。

Everybardy loves Robert

I wrote this because today is the end of November and end of November is the end of Part 1 of our project.

Nah, because I just wanna express my thoughts for the month November.

NAH! Actually I wanna introduce some of my colleagues.

NAH!!!!! Actually wanna add 1 more blog post to my blog.

Let's start.

Andie
He's shorter than me 1 head and 20 years older than me. Ok he's the manager here, and my driver whom drives me to work everyday. (Everyday except today because his car went to the garage for repair; I named his car yellow submarine.) He always talk with a lot of gestures. For example:

"Eh Robert-kia, I tell you huh, that Mr Ho (then he will put his right hand up) is a backstabber! Last time he told me... (then his left hand pointing dunno-where) Now he tell me... (Both hands on the air) So now he will... (suddenly stand up and hands always not at the same position...) So you must be careful ar!"

Then I will say

"Hookay, so your point is...."

Ric
Another uncle whom is 20++ older than me and a huge stomach. Beer is the culprit, says he. A very responsible uncle I must say. And, he likes to tell me dirty jokes that I'm not interested with. So one day, I challenged him:

"Hey Ric, listen up. One day, there were one black cat and one white cat. Then they having a stroll in the park. Out of the sudden, black cat drop into a well. Black cat was so panicked at this time. He look up and said something to the white cat. And my question is, what did the black cat said?"

He looked puzzled and I know that I've won this round... He then gave up.

"The black cat said... 'Meow!' How can a cat talk! WA LAU EH!"

I replied and feeling very proud. My senses telling me that my jokes are better than his. However, he said these:

"What the f*ck Robert! This kind of lame joke you dare to tell me ar!!! What the f*ck! (Yeah he repeated twice)"

He thinks he's better and he made some amendments with my joke.

"The black cat and the white cat know that there's a wishing well! Whatever you wish for you just shout and jump in to the well and your wish will come true. Then the white cat jumped into the well and shouted. 'I WANT A BIG BREAST!!' And prrrrringgg! She got a pair of big breast! Then the black cat saw what happened and follow the white cat. She ran towards the well and suddenly, she tripped on something fell in to the well. Just right before she fell in to the well she scolded 'WA CCB!!!' Then when the black cat came out of the well she was very smelly. OK END!! NOW MINE WAS MORE FUNNIER! WAHAHAHAHAHA"

Then all my colleagues laugh.

Idiots.

Lam (I pronounce him as Lamb)
The pampered guy that born-in-Vietnam-but-stayed-in-UK-and-now-working-in-SG fella. He dunno Mandrin. He only knows how to speak Cantonese and English with a British accent. He got iphone and this makes me hate him soooo much!

"Andie! Where's my door! I thought I told you since last week! You promised me!" (With a very annoying British accent.

"Where's M! Tell her she's f*cking lazy! Tell her!" (He always tell me but in front of M, he keep quiet.)

"POK KAI LA ROBERT!!" (I still dunno what's the meaning of 'POK KAI')

"Robert likes me."

Then I will shout, "POK KAI LA MR LAMB!"

Mikenga
This one is the legend. My ex boss. A very annoying pest to us.

"Robert so how's the progress?"
"HAR!?"

"Andie so how's the progress?"
"WHAT?!"

"Ric so how's the progress?"
"PARDON?"

"H so how's the progress?"
"HUH?!"

"Mr Ho so how's the progress?"
"NI GONG XIA MI?"

AND HE LIKES TO SPEAK VERY SOFT!!

Jo
My current boss. Driving Toyota Camry.

"Eh Robert, see I brought you from hell to heaven. Now who's better? Me or Mikenga?"

"Eh Jo, you think you drive Camry big f*ck ar! Here also same lo! Bleah!"

But still have to thank him, he made me bring home more $$ than before.. Haha..

And I like to imitate all of them. Because I'm very observant. My imitating skills cheer my team up most of the time. Everybardy loves Robert. Hahahahahaha.

We must have fun during work, or else life will be so dull.. So many will ask, what am I doing? Why am I so busy now a days? Actually it is all because of..

Dun call yourself a Singaporean if you dunno what is this.

=)

After a long day, it's good to buy something to make yourself happy.

See! So simple! And this egg made me happy for only around 2.4 seconds. That's enough.

=)

KTHXBAI!!

The Little Prince

Adults like figures. They like to ask questions like these:

"How much you earn per month?"
"When you get marry?"
"What is your age?"

When I was a kid, I like to ask questions too...

"When are we going to the playground? The one that got sand..."
"Why caterpillar got wings when the grow up?"
"Why must I go to school..."
"Why must I eat egg yolk?"

I still like asking questions, but I dun like figures at all..

"When is my holiday?"
"Can I go home now?"
"Why you dun like me?"
"When can we be together?"

Haha...

Pretend

“一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套。”

I just realize that actually I quite naive.

*Sigh.

And I hate Novembers, initially I thought it is sweet.

一件十分的 T-shirt

You want to buy a T- shirt,
You seek advice from others,
Others say it is nice.
You bought that shirt.
That is not 一件十分的 T-shirt.

You want to buy a T-shirt
You choose a T-shirt,
You think its nice,
Others say no.
But you still buy that shirt
That is 一件十分的 T-shirt.

You thought you are happy,
But actually you know best.
You think happiness is a choice.
But actually you know happiness need to be shared.
You are always walking alone.
You have sleepless night.
You always wake up at 4am.
And you dun wan this.
But who understands?

When happiness is still a choice

When happiness is still a choice, there's nothing much you want to demand for..

My workplace is like a sauna. Yeah, that air-con is damaged since yesterday morning. Of course, humans like us need comfort. With this kind of situation, I have to admit that I'm feeling very fitful. Just imagine, when you are sweating all over at your work desk and the deadline for submitting your work is this coming Friday, wouldn't you be panic? I can sense pressure from different direction.

Seriously, I feel miserable. Indeed, this has no one to blame. But I really wonder, when will this indigence ends? The problems come like waves, ever since I posted here.

I know, this is just a small matter, one who always complaint will never do something great. Take a deep breath and do whatever I can. I need not to be the best, but I dun want to be the worst as well...

Happiness is a choice, I choose to be happy. I choose to take pressure as pleasure.

=)

Nike Human Race 2009

I never sweat like this for a long time. Must apologize to them, because of me we spend more time finish up the race. Yes, because I kept stopping and they have to wait for me. I think I'm old.







Indeed... I think I'm really getting old. My whole body is aching now even though I've done enough warm up exercise before the run.

Multi Tasking

I'm so sad that I cannot multi-tasking.

Just another normal day:
Colleague A
"Hey Robert! How to write this email? I need your help, you know, I'm not very good at replying email.."

At that point of time I was doing my work with spreadsheet, then I replied
"Oh... Wait ar.. You let me... do finish my work first."

At that point of time, I realize that my brain cannot do 2 things at the same time. My intentions was to finish what I am doing now but another question just pop out and I need to think for that question, end up I type wrong of what I'm doing and I replied nonsense to Colleague A. Haha! It was funny! I mean... I typed in my spreadsheet what was supposed to reply in the email to Colleague A and I replied to Colleague A what was suppose to be typed in my spreadsheet.

Another normal day:
That time I was driving. Then my mum called me. I used the loud speaker function. Then my mum ask me
"When you coming back and where are you now?"

That point of time I was just outside St 93 (where is near my house)
I replied
"..... I outside..."

Then my mum keep asking
"Where? I thought you should be coming back?"

"I call you back later I'm driving hookay?"

I admit I was frustrated because when I cannot stand people keep asking me question when I'm doing things. But I realize that I cannot do 2 things at the same time! Come to think of it, that was really a simple question. Correct? "Where are your location?" And I cannot answer! I dunno what I was thinking at that time but I found it hard to answer. My point is that, I only know I was at St 93 until I hung up the phone. I blame myself why I just can't reply to my mum I was at St 93! The reason is, I was thinking some other things.

Yes, I cannot multi task. My mind cannot be focused everytime. Can this be improve? They said learning Yoga can let your mind be more focus.

I'm so sad. It seems that everyone can multi task but not me. This feeling is like, I'm like a handicapped. And my mind cannot be cleared. Seems like it has always be occupied.

3 downs and 6 ups

Complaint ain't gonna take you any further! I know this! It will definitely NOT improve the situation!

The new environment disappoints me as well. I think humans never ever like their jobs. WE ARE ALWAYS NOT SATISFIED!

Actions and follow ups need to be done in order to improve the situation and you yourself! The only advantage of complaints are merely just to make you feel better.

They said humans have 3 downs and 6 ups. We have to gone through this cycle before we enter our graves. And moreover, we cannot control when Murphy enter our door steps. That's why sometimes we have to choose not to bother.

Ah~ I feel so stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! OK whatever, I know that things will get better in the future. 3 downs and 6 ups. (There are more ups then downs.) So I guess this moment I have to be more optimistic. Looking forward to every weekend.

What to do? Life still have to move on.

The Amphibian know the drought is coming. Although that time his life will be tough but he knows that no matter how long it takes, the first drop of rain will eventually reach the Earth.

He is waiting.

一个人心中，只有一个宝贝。久了之后， 它变成了眼泪。 泪一滴在左手， 凝固成为寂寞。 往回看， 有什么？

E.N.D - Energy Never Die!!

"You will reach your goal no matter how slow you walk, as long as you dun stop."

Said Confucius

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,
I know that you feel being neglected.. What to do, I'm like a bee lately. I'm in a demand.

Dear Blog,
You know, I made a lot of decisions. I have decided to step back to the school in January 2009. To make more friends and to power up myself. I think this is a sooner later thing, that's why I act early.

Dear Blog,
I signed up for the Nike Home Run, I dunno whether I can make it to the 10km. Most probably I won't.

Dear Blog,
I ate a lot of meat this whole week. I guess tomorrow I will be a herbivore.

Dear Blog,
I... I have nothing to report actually. I know that no matter what you will always be here for me. I can always turn to you.

Dear Blog,
Good night. See you in my dreams.

Abandon

Dear blog,

I'm not abandon you. This past few days there are no updates due to hmm.. Nothing much to be blogged. Haha..

However I've learnt to be strong... I have decided a lot of things. I've been listening to lots of songs. And I've been reading a new book. So I guess I'm still cool~

Yours faithfully
Robert

Positive Thinking, Healthier Mindset

There is a new advertisement that Government is spamming the media now days. It goes something like this:

Elephant, "Hey Monkey, how have you been doing lately?"

Monkey "Bad... What I'm working now can only let me afford peanuts."

Elephant "That's not consider bad, at least you can still afford peanuts!"

Monkey in deep thoughts then replied, "Yeah, you are right, at least I still can afford peanuts, better than nothing!"

Then they both laugh. (The Giraffe is merely an extra)

End

Correct, it is good to have a positive thinking to have a healthier mindset. However, to think again, it's really hard to have a positive thinking for me in this society. I keep thinking that this advertisement is just a propaganda from the Government that telling us to be contented. How can we be contented?

If you are not aware about this, the society has changed. Thinking positive? Nah, there's a new trend. Selfishness has evolved. Humans not only tend to be selfish and yet they want gaining by not contributing. This syndrome will be the new trend and it is called Spite. Spite is evil, it is a phenomenon that occurs when a player's value of an allocation decreases when one or more other players' value increase. Thus other things being equal, a player exhibiting spite will prefer an allocation in which other players receive less than more, if the good is desirable. Humans today has learn to be spiteful. The will have minimum contribution but they want maximum rewards in return.

Some vivid examples in our daily lives.

Imagine you have 2 siblings. Your mother, Madam Dae Jung Hu is an overworked housewife. After dinner, you and your 2 other siblings dump the dishes in the basin and walk away. The intentions are: Madam Dae Jung Hu will wash for us. You and your siblings only want to enjoy the meal (rewards) but dun wish to help out in cooking or washing (zero contributions!). You and your siblings are being spiteful!

Not only you, Madam Dae Jung Hu is spiteful as well. Happen that one day she went to a supermarket. She took one item and went to the cashier to ask for a discount. The cashier replied that that item will be discounted unless spending more than $50. Without further consideration, Madam Dae put that item back. Her thinking was, she wants the discount (reward) but she dun want to spend more than $50 (no contributions).

With the field of social evolution, Spite has been nailed to our behavior as we grow up. Sad to say, it has became an instinct. The very first innocence of us has been corrupted by Spite. When we are young, we will share and contribute what we can willingly. However, as we grow up, we may think thrice of contributing. But we think nothing when it comes to receiving the reward.

With spiteful act in our society, it is very hard for me to think positively. But think again, if it doesn't bother me, why should I care so much? Hmm... I guess I need to take a break. Maybe to somewhere else, maybe outta this world.

That Sunday we went to...

Been there, done that.

Science Center!! Oh boy oh boy! It has been a long time since I've been there. They say Leonardo Da Vinci is a genius and happen that there was this exhibition for him at Science Center so we agreed to have a visit. I always want to know Da Vinci more.

Okay, they are right, he was indeed a genius. His inventions, creations, productions really impress me. His existence made a lot of contributions for human race till date. And if without exhibition, I would never know that he's an Italian. I would never know the secrets of Mona Lisa Painting. I would never know how Mona Lisa Painting end up in France but was actually painted in Italy. I would never know that he had a big nose. I would never know that he was "happy" but he had a wife.

Not only this that impress me, I'm also impress to see that children now days are not being taught what they ought to do and what they should not do when visiting an exhibition. Yes, they ARE NOT being taught. Signage and notice boards (Please do not touch) are put up for a reason but still, *sigh children were seen fiddling with the art pieces of Mr Da Vinci. It's is a sad thing that parents have not done their part. I'm quite worried and I think I will have to re-consider whether to have a baby next time. Children thought that this exhibition is just another playground for them but this was meant to be an educational trip. If I were Da Vinci, I think I was not being respected.

Edited: Okay, managed to take 1 photo before entering the exhibition. This is the bridge that was designed by Da Vinci. The specialty is that the was constructed without using any screws, bolts, nuts and ropes. The interlocking of each and every logs was used to substantiate the durability. Just imagine that you come across the bridge, will you be daring enough to cross it?

Just too bad that they dun allow cameras in the exhibition, or else you all will see photos flooding all over this blog entry.

Been there, watched that.

Another movie by our homegrown director Jack Neo, "Where Got Ghost?" Maybe because of the coming Seventh Month Ghost Festival that's why have this kind of movie.

At first, when watching this movie, I really hate being Singaporeans . Maybe I'm too drama or what. Budden (But then), actually every Jack's movie convey us a message. For this movie, it tells us that whatever you have done, you must account for it. Dun ever think that Ghost do not exist, you will never know.. Wooooooo~ Scary...

There are 3 parts story-telling scenes. These 3 parts has totally no linkage upon one another. The jokes are funny and some of the scenes are scary. If you are not alert or well prepared enough, you might get frighten and your body might jerk and you will end up embarrassed yourself because you are not man enough!

I jerk a lot of times... Dammit.

Funny show but... I'm regret of watching it.

Bad people deserve nothing

Bad people

A) Selfish, do things for themselves, unwilling to help others.

B) Selfish, do things for themselves, unwilling to help others and still want to gossip about others.

C) Selfish, do things for themselves, unwilling to help others, gossip about others and everything they also want to know.

They can make an effort to go look around and keep asking what is going on but they dun want to make an effort to offer help.

You do nothing but give us hell.

Add on: And it's sad that I can only vent my anger here. After that, move on.

Left 4 Alive (Part 2)

There was a time, when people said that the 4 of us couldn't make it, but we did.

There was a time when people said that we won't succeed, but we did.



When everyone dropped dead, we stand firm. We show the world what they could not predict.


Left 4 of us alive. With strong fighting spirits!

Self motivation

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Move Along - The All-American Rejects

Simplicity is the beauty

I like plain and simple.

简单就是美。

Must love dogs

I saw him during my lunch break yesterday. I feel like sending these photos to Storm. Alarm that whoever tied him here. He was not very comfortable under the freaking hot sun.

Damn that whoever!

1800-911-SPCA

Good people deserve good ending

I must really thanks all my friends out there. For the enlightenment. Thanks for telling me the true meaning of "envy" and "jealousy". Credits go to Skitty and Justea. Thanks to Rogeroko, RX and Man for showing me the path of happiness. Your presence and appreciation really helps.

I know sometimes you cannot have what you want. I know there is still a long way for me. I know I'm always awake at 4am and you have no trouble sleeping. I know all these since from the start. Yet I'm gonna thank you.

I have to learn to let go. I will still be good because my mum has taught me before, good people deserve good ending.

You are just like water keep slipping through my fingers, and knowing that you have flown to another river, I can sense your happiness.

渐渐

你转身走向来时的街
阳光刺出眼中的泪
原来离别正上演
挽回终究是无解
渐渐不见你微笑的脸
会不会是你在表演
眼泪干了只是盐
哭过没有感觉

你渐渐不见
你那样坚决
(爱渐渐不见)
爱消失眼前

眼前是白天但夜般黑
胸口正下一场大雪
寒冷将灵魂冻结
我却还不肯熄灭

应该是任你渐渐走远
但两个我正在对决
感情在心中沉淀
已过保存期限

爱渐渐不见
将我心冻结
(你渐渐不见)
感觉我已被撕裂

爱渐渐不见
爱渐渐不见
(看不见这一切一转眼太遥远)
地转天旋
(看不见这一切)
你渐行渐远
(一转眼都已经熄灭)

爱已经熄灭

The end of 12th Mono

This morning was raining. I must believe that rain means lucky. Anyway, I went back to my previous camp for a celebration. My unit gotten the Best Infantry Unit for the year 2008 / 2009. I feel so proud of it.

Okay okay... I always blog about my unit life with my peers. Now, I want to say how I feel of my unit. Individually.

I remembered I was called a happy-go-lucky guy with a naive yet not-so-arrogant attitude. Whenever I am doing my work, these traits will go along with me. I must highlight that actually I'm not happy-go-lucky. In fact, I hate to be happy-go-lucky because this shows that I'm shallow. Seriously, I just dun want to do things and be a burden to others and I hate creating troubles for other people. That's why I keep reminding myself that whenever a job need to be done, try not to leave your sh*t behind. Do your part with all the effort. When suffer together, we will help one and other. 12th Mono Bravo taught me that.

Men are actually my responsibilities. I dun want to remember how these "responsibilities" issued to me. I only want to remember that these "responsibilities" had resulted my assets. By seeing them changed to the good, I have known that I done my part.

From the moment I enter S camp, my heart swells up with... a bit of pride, a bit of uneasy, a bit of hope and a bit of unwilling. I got this kind of feeling that I going to book in. And I remember how it feels until now. Those unwillingness still occur. Then as we walk to the cookhouse, I saw all my peers. From the A coy to C coy to HQ coy and to Support coy. Those faces I still remember.

A video was shown to us about 12th Mono. I guess all videos are the same. Just that the compile all videos take before together and put it as "12th Mono" and sum up everything. But still, good effort la.

Then we went back to our company line to taste some our memories back then... I always love the smoking corner outside our company office. This is a gathering place for all the commanders and the men. The insightful thing will be those cigarette butts throw all around the smoking box though. The bed where I use to sleep now was occupied by another commander. I just want to tell that whoever-sleep-on-my-bed commander he's lucky to have this bed. I think it has the best position in the 4-6 bunk. Haha! I still remember 4-6 bunk! Beside us is the HQ-5 bunk!

The air-con bunk was cleared. The first thought was... Where are the RISK and MONOPOLY? The entertainments for the ORD-around-the-corner commanders. Along the corridor, the toilets have not change much. Only that it was cleaner than before. Then we also went back to the PS bunk.. I suddenly realize that I'm the only commander that slept all the 4 bunks before. The 4-6 bunk, HQ-5 bunk, then the air-con bunk and lastly the PS bunk. Haha..

This place where I hate to be in at first actually makes me and teaches me how to be a better person. How can I forget what I have done? The people I have met, those funny things I did, those memories I have collected... Always will be a part of my life.

Alright, I guess the ending of 12th Mono is this Best Infantry Unit celebration. The last gathering for the men and us.

Until re-service.

Where I belong. I'm proud to be a scorpian.

Joke!

I have been in pain this week. I thought is because of gastric. So I went to see the doctor.

Doctor: "So what's your problem today?"

Me: "I have gastric pain lately... Can you help?"

Doctor: "Which side of it you feel pain?"

I showed him.

Doctor: "Hmm.. That is not stomach, in fact that is your colon."

Me, flabbergasted: "Huh? This is not my stomach? Then I'm not having gastric pain? But I feel pain whenever I touch here (my colon)!"

Doctor: "That because you have constipation."

Me, blushed: "Oh, constipation eh..."

Doctor: "I suppose that you have not been defecate for these past few days. Why not start eating more fruits and vegetables today? You will see the consequences. I will prescribe some fibre pills for you. Take a seat outside."

Receptionist: "Mr Robert, here are the fibre pills, twice daily and... ... ... Remeber to eat more fruits and vegetables! This will help!"

Oh great, as I turn around, I can sense that all other patients were looking at me. Thanks. This point of time, I really hope that I have a changkok to dig a hole and bury myself.

What a joke! Now then I know where is my stomach and my colon.

Teacher

Ahem* Yes I am.

I have been providing tuition for my nephew the past 2 weeks. I love teaching people. Actually teaching is a honorable task. You need to equip yourself with extreme good patience and proper guidance to pass the skills to your students. To provide teaching for others is actually reminding yourself what you have learn way back before, so that you will never forget how to do it. My Zanden is only 8 years old with a poor background of Mathematics! Mathematics actually comes with logic. They always have one answer. If a child have good Mathematics background, he will grow up to have a good logical thinking.

So that day I went to his house. Upon seeing me, Zanden was excited. I can see that he wanted a tuition teacher so badly. He took out his holiday homework and came to me, " We have to finish this 200++ pages of my assessment book this holiday~"

-_-! 200++ pages...

-_-! again...

Okay, never mind, I will try me best, anyway it is a sin to reject a child. So Zanden brought me to his room to start on with the lesson. The topic I teaching him that day was "Money". Alright, Money, doesn't seem difficult. In fact, we encounter "Money" almost everyday. $_$

"Zanden, draw for me 2 x $10 notes."

He drew...

"A handsome guy, and ten dollars at the right hand side..."

Handsome guy???

"Who's that handsome guy?"

"Nor... The guy inside the note. He got a mustache one!"

.......... Okay, I know who, just that I forgot his name.

So as I was teaching, Zanden really cannot focus. He kept fidgeting, look elsewhere, basically cannot concentrate and neglect my presence! But, I know that I must maintain patience and control my anger. Also, the fact that I cannot expect an 8-year-old kid to sit down quietly and study at the same time. All kids are born to be active. After for some moment, his mother came in. Zanden's attitude changed. Upon seeing his mum, he adjust the chair and pretend to look back at his assessment book.

Wow! I was amazed.

So as I continue the lesson, Zanden truly answered all my question. Initially, he was not focusing but the presence of his mother changed everything. So at that point of time, I recalled what was I when I was an 8-year-old kid with mucus on my nose. (*Sniff) Similar to Zanden, I was full of energy. However, I love to study. I love school! I love to have somebody to teach me. Apart from my primary school teachers, I really hope that at home, I have a personal tutor as well. Maybe because since young I hate being doing things alone. Yeah, that's right.. Till now, I also dun wish to do things alone too. Like, going out alone, watching movies alone, shopping alone etc. It always good to have companions.

So 2 hours had passed and I found out that we only did 5 question... (Half of a page, -_-!) I was damn exhausted. Serious! If learning is difficult, I think teaching is twice as much. I suddenly feel that I must salute my teacher from primary and secondary school and those lecturers from my poly. *Salute!

Although teaching is a tiring job but after the end of the day, I feel very resourceful. And, I still hope that one day I can fly to Nepal to provide education for the poor and the needy. Teach them everything that I have learn so far. Isn't that great?

Then when I about to leave his house, he said to me,

"So next Wednesday same time also hor??"

"I see how it goes la.. Can?"

"Okay.. Bye bye Mr Cheong..."

Mr Cheong??? Now who is Mr Cheong? Kids are acting so weird now days...

寂寞光年

This is the song of the Chinese drama that I have been watching every night.



是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了 快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

Alright... Off to work.
(Work sucks! I know!)
~_~!

My 100th post

At this hour, I woke up again. It has been a week.
Then I filled with utmost of emotions.





Sometimes it is best to use a song to interpret what you are thinking.

But I am only human

"I want to be a hero. One day I shall change the world, and fight for world peace."

That was sometimes ago...

I want to be a person that others no need to worry about me. I dun need sympathy actually, just show some concern and appreciation will do. I know when I will excel, I know when I will stand on top of the world. I dun want to see myself doing the wrongful act in order to achieve my goal. I dun want to see myself as a burden to others.

The world has turned ugly since 1986, 23 years later, it ain't getting any better. Nothing has gone wrong. I just know that I cannot control everything.

If only I can fly, I will fly to you.
If only I can sing, I will sing for you.
If only I can survive, I will survive with you.
If only I can be your hero, would you die with me?

You are only water, keep slipping through my fingers.
I am only human, I can't see my future.

Super Sunday

I think I really need to see specialist. I suppose to be sleeping now.

Super Sunday because it is super. ??? Lame.. Anyway, it's good to have friends to stay near your area, then you can go out with them often.

The Musketeer of Jurong I mean. No one else.

At first I was thinking to bring them for the massage. It's called "Fast Massage", I finally know what is the name. But they rejected. I thought they enjoy. *Sigh. We went for a restaurant that serve Taiwan cuisine and it sucks! Mainly because we are not use to it. The smell of beef overpowered the whole restaurant. After that, dessert. Recommended by Justea whom can't join us today.

The main purpose for today is actually to watch...

This show, we booked at 1905. When we went in at 1903, the screen was still black. Suppose to have some commercials. Then at 1932, somebody announced: Dear all, we are sorry that there is some serious technical fault that we are not able to rectify, please proceed to counter D4 to refund your tickets.

.........

Our main purpose for today is to watch this damn show but in the end they expect us to go home empty handed? No way! We have to watch this by today no matter what!

Alright, 2045 slot did not disappoint us. This show is amazing. It has a good base and story line. Mainly, machines movies will lead us scratching our heads all the way throughout but not for this one. I really like this. And to our surprises, we saw Arnold Schwarzenegger, the first Terminator. Yeah, I shall not reveal that much. If you want to see, please go ahead.

Then this is how Super Sunday ended.

Mini Concert

There is really something wrong with me these past few days, I always woke up at this disturbing hour...

Alright, yesterday we went to Princess J's concert. It was her own mini concert after singing for 9 long years... Wow. I guess yesterday she did a smashing concert at Bishan. As a friend, I really feel proud of her because at her age, she already had so much in life.



And the concert was a success. It really look like one of those professional concert. The lighting, the dancers, the crowd, the special guests... Come together and made this performance successful. I would say, I like her outfit most. I think total got more than 5 different outfits for this concert and everyone seems awesome. (I think she will be glad for 3 weeks upon seeing this!) Her vocal was astonishing. (Another 2 more weeks.) I mean compare from previous KTV sessions with her she really shows a lot of improvement. I know I can't even hold a candle to judge her singing but I never doubted her singing before. Her voice is a gift from heaven.

Fans taking photo with their Idol

Our Princess has a lot more to come... Really hope that one day she will stand at a bigger stage with her bigger crowd singing her favorite songs and creates a legend in the singing industry.

And her loyal fans are always us.

Work Grumbles

I should say.. Shag is the word.

I went to site visiting today. Every site visit will lead me burn out. And sad to say, I realize that site visiting is unnecessary unless the project does not went well. I'm now trying to mend back all the holes. I just dun understand, why has it to be me...

"If it is not you, who?"
"If it is not now, when?"
"If it is not here, where?"

I seen this somewhere, but I just can't recall. Anyway, I hope that I'm responsible enough to twist this project back to the right path and close it. I thinking that I'm being force to grow up. Responsibilities are thrown to me and causing me to make decisions. Compare 3 years ago when I was still a student, I was so ignorant. I shun all the responsibilities away, I tend to be unsociable, I was so naive...

Today has not been enough, I will be going down tomorrow. Really hope that I will finalize this project soon. Till then...

Awaken by you...

It's 4am plus now.. I was awaken by a dream.

Yesterday, I went dinner with my very own The Musketeers of Jurong. After work, suppose to stay at office longer but in the end I left early to meet them. We had dinner at Ichiban-sushi. The nicest Japanese restaurant at Jurong Point. Justea went home after that while we catching a movie: The Night At The Museum 2.

The movie starting at 9.35pm and we have about an hour more. So the 3 of us went around JP2 as the time tickling away. We came across this new outlet:

Me "Hey hey! Wanna try foot reflexology?"
The signboard attracted my attention: $10 FOR EVERY MASSAGE! SIMPLY JUST CHOOSE 1 MASSAGE FOR 15 MINUTES!"

Ango, "Okay okay!"
He looked excited.

Uncle Tan seems a bit reluctant. Mainly because his initial motive was to go arcade to play his favorite game, Drum Maniac.

The store named "Quick Massage" or "Fast Massage", I can't really remember its "Quick" or "Fast" but anyway $10 for a 15 minutes of a relaxation is really cheap. Their massage not only consist of foot reflexology but also head, shoulder and back massage. I chose foot reflexology and they chose shoulder and back massage. The process for me was totally painful. I was enduring as he massage my leg. My face went red as he massaging my calve. Pain means that my body is not healthy at all. The sensei analysis for me was that an improper diet, back pain due to insufficient water, easily fatigue, difficult of sweating due to insufficient water as well and insufficient breath intake. Oh boy.. At my age I already having this kind of problems I guess I should taking good care of my body from now on.

The 2 PSes going for their shoulder and back massage. I can see that they really enjoy just that Ango thinks it would be better if the process is longer. 15 minutes is really inadequate.

After that, my lower body was aching. Then we went to see TNATM2. It was a hilarious movie I can say. The history of America came to live and do some stupid things. So on and so forth. If happen that your boss frustrates you today maybe this movie is a good one to forget your anger.

A very long day actually. The sensei said that I will be having a good sleep after the massage. Yes true, just that just now that dream spoil the whole thing... And leave me heartbroken. Never mind, just a dream, hope it won't be coming true.

.........

Please dun let it come true.

Left 4 Alive

BigZ said he wanna have a gathering before Ankit go for a holiday in India. Been a long time since BigZ and Rogeroko hang out with Ankit.

Then some memories flash back... During the days when we had nights out, we went out together. After that we rushed back to camp together.

The four of us

Nothing change. Just that this time around we rush our separated ways back.

Bravo Team 12 - 170509

Whoa! This is the 5th match for BT12. Still, it is exciting and definitely a worth to see it. Better than the Man-U VS Arsenal match on Saturday.

Before I start on with BT12, actually I did a lot of things on this weekend. First is we went to watch the match between the Red Devils and the Gunners on Saturday. Yeah, I'm not a soccer freak, said thrice already, but I just want to learn from the managers' gestures and attitudes. Because me myself, is the Manager of BT12! Haha...

The taste like a cough syrup. Cough*

We went to Chijmes to watch the soccer match. Although I'm not a fan of Man-U, (or rather, I'm not a fan of soccer) but I have to support Man-U. Look around me, there are only Man-U fans out there. And yeah, there's Ankit whom just came back from the States.

BT12 - The 5th match.
Yishun Ring Road
Against Team Yellow.

We were against the team which is from 3 SIR. If not wrong, their coordinator is the previous mortar Platoon Commander from Support Company.

New member! Fahmy Alkaff

Another new member! Ammar Salim

A goal from the penalty kick! Kudos!

Salim is the man of the match for today

Our golden defender.


Store and more~

So the scoreboard is first goal from Nigelinho, second from Syazzy. However, Team Yellow managed to equalize with 2 goals. Hmm.. I think we need some serious training. This is the first match that we had a draw. We will still be having another match 2 weeks later. This time around! We gonna win!