I should have used to it

I should not have go back.

I should not have complaints.

I should go with the flow.

I should have agreed with them.

I should have used to it.

"When we go out what you all doing? Sleep right?"

"So unfair..."

I can take it. See... It's ok. As I told myself, I should have used to it.

But it hurts and angered me when...

OML, "Ricaro... I really need somebody to fill in the slot for this Saturday duty."

From here I can really see that he really needs someone to help him. How can I reject? He's the person that dotes me a lot. Moreover I keep telling myself I must help him whenever he's having any situations. So when I was about to say yes, an ugly shit from a dirty corner...

BMC, "Then you do la, you long time didn't do already what..."

I was quite pissed. All in the while he was waiting to interfere our conversation, and say something that is not nice. He gimme a feeling that he waited for this opportunity for a long time already! This is what he always like to do. I can tahan his character but I just cannot tahan his ignorance.

BMC "Cause you slack the most and you slack more than you work..."

He knows me so much? Why does he choose to know this other than my personality? How many siblings I have? Where do I live? What's my last name? Why dun he knows am I the one to choose the job I'm doing now? I doubt he knows these. We seldom have any conversation now days. Why out of nowhere he want to say this?

Firstly, I dun think he need to interfere. It's between me and OML.

Secondly, why does he have to bother? He always say he got A LOT of things to do. So why not go and do his stuff rather stay down there and kaopei-ing.

"I got signal stuff to do la. I got signal stuff to do la."

Thirdly, I think he has a big and filthy mouth and I dun like him.

Feel like punching his face and make his 2 blanks found to 10 blanks found.

But...

I was told to forgive and forget.

People choose to be ignorance so be it. People choose to let others hate so be it. You just have to hope that you and your kids dun be like him. I keep thinking there were times when he helped me before. So that at least makes me better.

But sometimes I really want to shout back... When you all go out what you all think I should do? Run 10km? Wear FBO and run up and down like an IDOIT? Or leopard crawl along the corridor every morning? 3 times a day, 5 days a week? Or should I put mud on my face and when you all come back I let you all see that I also got suffer. Or you all want me to act like a hypocrite and ankart you all? I'm not this kind of person and I dun want to be this kind of person.

Nobody will understand!!! Nobody will even bother to understand!!! And I must think that it is a bonus if someone understand!!!

OML, "Dun care what other people say..."

Thanks.

The world belong to you. Others are just spectators.

2.35pm - It is ok if the whole world dun understand him. But at least one will do. Just one.

Tahan - Take it like an acceptance

Ankart - Sucked up