Hindrance

Frustrated. Is what I'm feeling now.

I know I shouldn't be stubborn. I shouldn't be forgiving either. It is obvious enough that what I'm doing now is actually taking over somebody's job. Taken into consideration that I have 0 experience. How can it be done with a 100% mistake-free-job-well-done? Moreover! There's no one to guide or references to take. Yes, although no one has sound out a single blame or reprimand but I really dun feel good. It's something like my mind being ill treated.

When things go wrong you will question why it has been done in the wrong way in the first place. Basically you need to ask for the History before you act on to the Present.

Yet, the person that know the History is not very cooperative. I treat him as a Hindrance. A big rock in front of the bridge where I'm crossing over. Worst still, Hindrance also show unnecessary attitudes. Maybe he's guilty, that is why he need to be firm to substantiate what he had done previously to show others where's he standing now. Maybe he doesn't like others to interfere his work, that is why he seems to brush me off while I'm questioning. Maybe he's hinting me that I should stay at my desk rather that approaching his. But the main point is that I need to get the job done through this Hindrance or else it will snowball till no end. Hindrance loves to make use his negligence as a boon that causes trouble to others.

This is what bothering me.

I started to think that the best system I have seen so far (sad to say) is SAF. Although I maybe wrong but compare to the organization that I'm in, SAF really show much more capabilities in working relationships. (By saying this, it DOES NOT show I got some tendency to sign on or whatever, please get this clear.) In SAF, punishments may not be appropriate but it is actually the best medicine for negligence. See, how many times jobs need to be done and we know that if we did not do well, we may forgo our precious weekends. If we did not do the right thing, others may be whirled in to the vortex. If we did not show the correct example, others may follow the wrong footsteps. In my previous unit, we care too much. We care too much for others.

I used to believe that when humans are suffering in a harsh condition together, they will tend to lend a hand to others. But today, we are spoilt. Until a point of time that keeping our hands in our pockets is a better idea.