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The wind blew the ashes with my memories remain.
It has never been so real before.
Words with humiliation cut through the innocence and left nothing but grudge.

That time, we were young. Now I can't let go and there is no future.

The story continues with me standing here alone. I manage to breathe and stay alive and I saw my palm left with the scars. I see you walking away but I did not call you. I don't want to.

I told you I don't mind staying here alone. Go ahead with your endeavors. Find me again when you need someone.

The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

"踏着轻快的脚步回家"

When I was young, I always wrote "踏着轻快的脚步回家" to finish off my Chinese composition. Then I will score an A for it. As said by my Chinese teacher.

Then I realize as I grew up, no such thing as "踏着轻快的脚步回家" because everyday I will be exhausted. How am I to do that when always squeeze myself with the crowded train cabins? In fact, I will drag my heavy feet home.

That time when we were so innocent and pure.

Now we are so hasty and impulsive.

...

They thought you could run fast. Then they allow you to step on to the track. Then you vanish from the surface of the earth.

I thought I can run fast. I was told to be there and keep on running. How I wish I can vanish from the surface of the earth.

You see me running fast. You thought I can finish the line within minutes. But I vanish from the surface of the earth just like that.

When he was 7th grade

Mr Rusterback still remember when he was in 7th grade, his form teacher, Mr Gokali announced to the class that he was being transferred to another class. Mr Gokali explained that other class need a suitable teacher like him. However, all the students knew the reason why he had to leave. There is nothing wrong with his teaching just that he did not demand much from his students. When there is dateline given to hand in the assignment, none of the class responded, and this drag on and on.. Until the point of time that the Principal called Mr Gokali to his office.

All the students were worried what will happen to the them, and to be more vivid, the main concern was can they still drag their assignment with this new teacher? Some of them never like Mr Gokali because of his teaching style, some said he never concern for his class, some said he was too lenient and never present any strictness or pressure. Some blamed him for the poor grades they having.

Mr Rusterback on the other hand, was neutral. He never feel that Mr Gokali has a problem. Maybe because Mr Rusterback always have problem in judging someone.

Nevertheless, Mr Rusterback understand that life has to go on. A change may be is good, or bad, but not now to decide.

Mr Rusterback carried his bag, walked out of the class, and wished Mr Gokali all the best in his heart.

Sing To The Dawn

It's March, Twenty Eleven.

They say December, Twenty Twelve world will come to an end. We shall see.

I have read Sing To The Dawn by this awesome writer called Mingfong Ho. She is a native writer but moved to New York for her new life.

This book is brilliant.

In case of love

Remuneration

Mr Rusterback has a backyard.

He planted green beans and hope one day he will able harvest them. He will then sell each packet for 20 cents.

"1 pack 20 cents... 10 packs $2.... 100 packs $20... 1000 packs $200!"

"Sooner later I will be rich!"

It doesn't matter how much you earn. At the end of the day, tolling the whole day and fall asleep straight because of exhaustiveness is better than earning big bucks but unable to sleep because of insomnia.

Mr Rusterback

Mr Rusterback has a dream. His wish is before he leave the world, he can travel back to the era where his parents were born. Then at that moment, he can see what was going on during that time. Of course, he will not reveal his identity to them.

Then he will also travel to the place where he live once before, to see the change. And the most important thing is too meet Joo. He will tell Joo how great his life will be, to motivate him and to educate him. Tell him whatever he do, dun ever give up.

Mr Rusterback is actually in his mid forties. He know that he is dying soon that's why he pleaded the death reaper to grant his last wish. Although this wish seems tedious but the kind-hearted reaper willing to help him.

Nobody know what's Mr Rusterback is thinking. No one can enter his inner world.

Just someone

Someone who is helpful enough to lighten your burden. I appreciate his efforts.

I was playing Angry Birds because I have to accomplish 3 stars. I saw him giving up his seat to the elderly and followed by a smile. He walked to the entrance of the train at look at the reflection of himself, and at the elderly. His main concern is to let that elderly to have a more comfortable journey and not because the 3 ladies in the poster told him to do so.

We understand this is the right thing to do. We hope that this will pass down to the younger generation rather than having them playing with knives and parangs.

But, to accomplish 3 stars in every stages of Angry Birds is really difficult.