So...

Never thought that I will once again lay my fingers typing these..

I watched my idol got married and given birth.

I become more and more prudent, practical and slightly more realistic.

I made more friends. Become less extravagant.

No more drinking red pearl milk tea, more coke instead.

A little bit of "can you feel that boom boom da boom boom boom da boom way yeah SUPER BASS" 

Always never fail, surf on 9gag.com.

Gained more weight.

Most importantly, loving myself more, which is the reason why I came here less often!

The Hunger Games. ( Real life version )

Whenenver I feel unlucky or down I will look at this photo. At least to tell me that I should feel lucky enough to what I have now. So there is nothing much I will complaint about.

Just close your eyes,

You'll be alright,

Come morning light.

You and I will be safe and sound...

0990990990

I keep dreaming about the same dream.

The route where I used to walk home from my primary school.

There are some parts of our memory that we wouldn't want to forget.

Draw a heart and write the name of two together
Then two will be forever
End up one of them left because of endeavor
Still, the other one has hope for the latter.

Your true colors

After some time, I have seen your true colors. It's quite a pity that I couldn't bring myself to love you any more.

Didn't I tell you?

Yes, I did. Do you still remember that time when we stayed up quite late? The night was so quiet that I can hear you breathe.

You were there, I was here. I pointed out, and you agreed.

0990990990

The wind blew the ashes with my memories remain.
It has never been so real before.
Words with humiliation cut through the innocence and left nothing but grudge.

That time, we were young. Now I can't let go and there is no future.

The story continues with me standing here alone. I manage to breathe and stay alive and I saw my palm left with the scars. I see you walking away but I did not call you. I don't want to.

I told you I don't mind staying here alone. Go ahead with your endeavors. Find me again when you need someone.

The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

"踏着轻快的脚步回家"

When I was young, I always wrote "踏着轻快的脚步回家" to finish off my Chinese composition. Then I will score an A for it. As said by my Chinese teacher.

Then I realize as I grew up, no such thing as "踏着轻快的脚步回家" because everyday I will be exhausted. How am I to do that when always squeeze myself with the crowded train cabins? In fact, I will drag my heavy feet home.

That time when we were so innocent and pure.

Now we are so hasty and impulsive.

...

They thought you could run fast. Then they allow you to step on to the track. Then you vanish from the surface of the earth.

I thought I can run fast. I was told to be there and keep on running. How I wish I can vanish from the surface of the earth.

You see me running fast. You thought I can finish the line within minutes. But I vanish from the surface of the earth just like that.

When he was 7th grade

Mr Rusterback still remember when he was in 7th grade, his form teacher, Mr Gokali announced to the class that he was being transferred to another class. Mr Gokali explained that other class need a suitable teacher like him. However, all the students knew the reason why he had to leave. There is nothing wrong with his teaching just that he did not demand much from his students. When there is dateline given to hand in the assignment, none of the class responded, and this drag on and on.. Until the point of time that the Principal called Mr Gokali to his office.

All the students were worried what will happen to the them, and to be more vivid, the main concern was can they still drag their assignment with this new teacher? Some of them never like Mr Gokali because of his teaching style, some said he never concern for his class, some said he was too lenient and never present any strictness or pressure. Some blamed him for the poor grades they having.

Mr Rusterback on the other hand, was neutral. He never feel that Mr Gokali has a problem. Maybe because Mr Rusterback always have problem in judging someone.

Nevertheless, Mr Rusterback understand that life has to go on. A change may be is good, or bad, but not now to decide.

Mr Rusterback carried his bag, walked out of the class, and wished Mr Gokali all the best in his heart.

Sing To The Dawn

It's March, Twenty Eleven.

They say December, Twenty Twelve world will come to an end. We shall see.

I have read Sing To The Dawn by this awesome writer called Mingfong Ho. She is a native writer but moved to New York for her new life.

This book is brilliant.

In case of love

Remuneration

Mr Rusterback has a backyard.

He planted green beans and hope one day he will able harvest them. He will then sell each packet for 20 cents.

"1 pack 20 cents... 10 packs $2.... 100 packs $20... 1000 packs $200!"

"Sooner later I will be rich!"

It doesn't matter how much you earn. At the end of the day, tolling the whole day and fall asleep straight because of exhaustiveness is better than earning big bucks but unable to sleep because of insomnia.

Mr Rusterback

Mr Rusterback has a dream. His wish is before he leave the world, he can travel back to the era where his parents were born. Then at that moment, he can see what was going on during that time. Of course, he will not reveal his identity to them.

Then he will also travel to the place where he live once before, to see the change. And the most important thing is too meet Joo. He will tell Joo how great his life will be, to motivate him and to educate him. Tell him whatever he do, dun ever give up.

Mr Rusterback is actually in his mid forties. He know that he is dying soon that's why he pleaded the death reaper to grant his last wish. Although this wish seems tedious but the kind-hearted reaper willing to help him.

Nobody know what's Mr Rusterback is thinking. No one can enter his inner world.

Just someone

Someone who is helpful enough to lighten your burden. I appreciate his efforts.

I was playing Angry Birds because I have to accomplish 3 stars. I saw him giving up his seat to the elderly and followed by a smile. He walked to the entrance of the train at look at the reflection of himself, and at the elderly. His main concern is to let that elderly to have a more comfortable journey and not because the 3 ladies in the poster told him to do so.

We understand this is the right thing to do. We hope that this will pass down to the younger generation rather than having them playing with knives and parangs.

But, to accomplish 3 stars in every stages of Angry Birds is really difficult.

她说

他静悄悄地来过
他慢慢带走沉默
只是最后的承诺
还是没有带走了寂寞

我们爱的没有错
只是美丽的独秀太折磨
她说无所谓
只要能在夜里 翻来覆去的时候有寄托

等不到天黑 烟火不会太完美
回忆烧成灰 还是等不到结尾
她曾说的无所谓 我怕一天一天被摧毁

等不到天黑 不敢凋谢的花蕾
绿叶在跟随 放开刺痛的滋味
今后不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

不怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

Hope to see you good.

After the conversation, all I can say is...
Hope to see you good.

There's nothing I can do anyway.

明日复明日， 　　
明日何其多。 　　
我生待明日， 　　
万事成蹉跎。 　　
世人若被明日累， 　　
春去秋来老将至。 　　
朝看水东流，
暮看日西坠。 　　
百年明日能几何？ 　　
请君听我明日歌!

Tomorrows pass just like water.
How many days had passed?
I live in tomorrow.
Everything slip through my fingers.
I will reach the age eventually,
And it's a torment to me.
I've seen the river flow
And the sun sets and rises.
How many tomorrows will be left in my life?


This is what I mean.
Hope to see you good.

Run

"Light up! Light up!
As if you have a choice.
Even if you cannot hear my voice,
I will be right beside you, dear."

Here comes 13th September

When you are having fun, the time passes faster than you expect.

I like to look back at those things I have done. To actually remind you that, "Eh? I really did that when I was young! Why I so stupid?!"

ZBL is really ZBL. Every morning I jump 10 counts of 10. To keep myself stay awake for the rest of the day.

Then I bring cacty for sun kissing.

And he just got tanned!

And I went to a vegetable farm one afternoon. It is so refreshing once you step in that place.

Mud ain't gonna stop me!

Of course, friends played an important part in the ZBL period. Not all are free however.

Some are for the only place that we will go: North Korea.

Some are for chillin' out.




Some are for killing undeads.



Some are for you-got-the-time-so-I-meet-you.

19 days had me recharged. Now I am prepared for the new beginning. Nothing great actually, everyone will come across this.

But 25 bucks and a cracker is it enough to take me there?

Updating. 26th August to 12th September

Yep. I have 19th days of long vacation. Time passes so fast! Imagine I already came out to the working society since 2 years ago. 2 years! To compare that, I had served the army for 2 years and to look back I already ORDed 2 years.

Now, it's time to change. Changes take place when the current situation does not satisfy one's behavior.

I will be promising myself to make this 12-days ZBL package resourceful. What's ZBL?

ZBL = Zuo Bo Lan = Do nothing.

I will meet my friends during weekdays. Because it is so great to see my friends working then in the meantime I am free. Haha, I know I'm quite sadist.

I am going to tidy my room (which I already did)

I am going to clean my living room ceiling fan.

I TRY to bring my cactus plant for sunkissing every morning.

ADD ON: I looked at my time table and found out that my assignments are due at September. So.. I need to do something about it.

So, I promise myself in the blog entry. Then when I start my new job again I will review and see what I have done.

My name is Robert, I have lived for 24 years. I like to do things that makes me happy.